Friday, October 24, 2008

Greyson Update

So I sit here in Greyson's hospital room, one week later with such a warm heart.

I am so grateful to all of you who have given us such kind and loving words of support and for your prayers. You have no idea how that helped me find renewed strength. Brian and I feel so rich, because we are blessed to have such incredible friends and family.  So thank you so much for helping us through this bump in the road.

My heart is also bursting with excitement because baby Grey is feeling better. He no longer has that horrible head accessory, the head IV. And he is PEEING. Yes I am being crude, sorry. I never thought that I would be so excited at the site of urine in a diaper.   Not to mention the site of regular other stuff ( often referred to as #2) looking completely normal. Especially because he is staying hydrated without the help of the IV. What an incredible thing. He also has returned to his normal pale color with a little bit of pink and peach everywhere( courtesy of his very pale parents). He smiles now and flirts with all the ladies in the room ;) He is for sure returning to his normal self.

But here is the best part and I don't know what this means yet as far as where I will be tomorrow.  He GAINED WEIGHT!!!!  I am so happy!!!  So I guess we will have to see what the doctors think and maybe I will be reunited with those gorgeous men I love and miss so much, Brian included ;)  I have missed them so much!!  I will try to never again take for granted the time that we have together again!

Here is another great quote I read this morning in Pres. Monson's talk that struck me.

"Despite the changes which come into our lives and with gratitude in our hearts, may we fill our days -- as much as we can-with those things which matter most.  May we cherish those we hold dear and express our love to them in word and deed." 

Its soooo true!!!  

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Gratitude

I feel that this is something that I have forgotten about with all the crazyness of life.

To stop and smell the roses and take in your surroundings. To count your blessings and name them one by one. I love the quote from President Monson's talk where he says, "We should make the most of today, of here and now, doing all we can to provide pleasant memories for the future." He also quotes The Music Man "You pile up enough tomorrows, and you'll find you've collected a lot of empty yesterdays"

I feel like I have collected a lot of empty yesterdays. I've missed opportunities and got caught up in the less important things. Reality has struck us like a ton of bricks recently. I am posting this message from a gorgeous room in the Children's hospital at Fitzsimons. Greyson, 2 and 1/2 months old, became severely dehydrated because of a virus that was going around our house. Not to mention they have diagnosed him as failure to thrive.
This has been the scariest moment of my life. I have had to reach deep inside myself to find the strength to hold it together as he is pricked and poked at on a regular basis throughout the day and night. Not to mention he has an IV in his head. I guess that is the best place sometimes for good veins. It is the hardest thing to look at my sweet newborn with tubes and cords coming off of him.

I think I have cried so much for him lately that I'm sure I could fill a swimming pool. This is my worst nightmare come true to have something horrible happen to one of my children. I haven't seen Rory and Wyatt since friday and I miss them horribly. They are my sweet rays of sunshine. Its a difficult situation, but we make it through it with faith. He is going to recover and we are going to be able to go home and head back into the grind of life again. But some of the kids that Greyson is here with are not so lucky. This hospital is so hard to be in because of the cries echoing though the halls from different kids. Yet it is wonderful because this environment is such a happy one. The staff works hard to make sure that these kids are happy and having fun. They had a halloween thing today. They have radio flyer wagons that you can pull kids in all through the hospital.

I am so grateful for modern medicine that makes this serious problem of Greyson's heal and go away.
He will be healthy again soon.

I am grateful for my husband who is a ROCK. His faith is unwavering and pure. Looking in his deep eyes assures me everything will be OK.

I am grateful for my guys. talking to them brightens my spirits and gives me strength. they have healthy, crazy boys and I love it.

I am grateful for my family who have dropped everything to assure that our kids are taken care of and that I am OK.

I am grateful for my friends. The love and support showed from them has been amazing.

I am grateful for my Lord and Savior who has been a constant by my side showing me the inner strength I need to make it through the next obstacle.

My life has changed for the better and I realize how richly blessed I am. And I will make it my duty in life to cherish and nurture every one of those blessings.

My hope is there will be no more empty yesterdays for me.